My trust and everything inside me is broken and destroyed

I been with my girlfriend for 10 months now, She had a guy in her instagram, which she meet in Tinder, we had 2-3 times fights about this because I couldn't accept that even if she was saying it's just a friend we never dated or anything like that, 5-6 months ago at our last fight about that she deleted this person in front of me and I wasn't thinking anymore about that person, 1 month ago I had her phone in my hand I went to her WhatsApp that moment this guy texted her, I asked her what is this she said how should I know why he's texting me etc I didn't trust her and I replied to that person and asked can you please check our conversation when was last we spoke and text as I don't have our conversation anymore and I found out she spoke and text 2-3 days before, She muted notifications from this person so I won't notice that, she keeps saying I didn't have any intention of cheating ! wanted to ask if he can help to find a job, I can't trust what she says, as I warned her long time ago things like this situation etc I can't accept in my life, She been telling me and assuring I wouldn't never ever do something like that I wouldn't do that because I respect myself I have values etc and she made me believe she would never do such a thing!
Any honest advice from you guys as this is destroying me, I can't break up because I love her but I can't even forgive what she did behind my back, if was one time I could classify as a mistake but unfortunately it wasn't one time!

12 comments posted: Friday, February 28th, 2025